I want to make a living, a proper job, from this internet malarky. There. I said it. I’ve known this for such a long time, but the only person I have been brave enough to confess this to, has been my unfailingly supportive boyfriend. It’s the thing I want most in the world. I want to write and create and review and read for the rest of my life, and who’s to say that I can’t? The only way to achieve a dream is to work as hard as possible to get it. So here is my first step, admitting my dream. I don’t care about being rich (though I wouldn’t say no!) or famous, I just want to be happy, successful and creatively fulfilled.
I completely understand that this is not necessarily a job that will pay the bills, despite what the spam may say. But that’s fine.
Hopefully Steven will be making enough money that I won’t have to worry about that. I will happily do it as a second job, I just want to do it. For real.
So, I’m going to start taking this seriously. Throw caution to the wind. Stop pretending that this isn’t what I want my career to be and work at it. If in ten years, I’m working in a school, or a hospital or an office, I want to be able to feel as though I tried my best to achieve my dreams, no matter how ridiculous they may be. So I’m going to make more videos, and write more posts. I’m going to read articles on blogging and watch videos about SEO. Most of all, however, I am going to try. I am going to stop being embarrassed and self-deprecating when it comes to my preferred career choice, and proudly say ‘I want to be a blogger and make YouTube videos”. And if all else fails, well then I shall deny all knowledge of ever saying this and you won’t be able to find a trace of this blog (or this website!) on the internet!