My biggest weakness is my inability to hold back my emotions at certain times. Particularly, for example, when I get incandescently angry or frustrated my tear duct traitors well up. When I was younger, this was a great technique to evoke sympathy from the person who caused these emotions, but now, at the grand old age of 23, with a proper grown up job, wanting to be taken seriously, it is like a shot in the foot. If you are in your twenties (gulp!) and you cry every time you find yourself frustrated at a situation, you lose a lot of respect from your co-workers – and rightly so. To add insult to injury, I am not a delicate crier. My voice becomes incredibly high pitched and I do not look like a dainty weeping flower, more like a hysterical sobbing foghorn. It’s hardly becoming!
Most of the time, in these situations, I am not particularly sad, I am, excuse my language utterly pissed off. Crying only makes me angrier! It makes me look weak when I am actually feeling particularly strong about something! I think the worst thing about this bodily dysfunction is that, as the crier, you come across as one of two ways. 1) The cry baby. You are overly sensitive, you could not possibly take criticism and therefore everyone will awkwardly tip-toe around you. Or 2) The drama queen. You are clearly only crying for attention and to get your own way. This will make people dislike and distrust everything you do.
You can see how it is not productive to my working life. I am, therefore, trying to work on this aspect of my personality. I think it all stems from being a small child who cried whenever she got in trouble (which, by the way, was a very rare occasion!) and I am trying to mascaraed as a grown up nowadays, so it is only right that I get over this. It’s a slow process and involves drinking water at the crucial moment, (thanks Google!) but it seems to be working so far!
Do any of you have a similar problem with unwanted tears? Let me know in the comments!